So i have recently come out...and I am confused as to where I met people who are like me? People who are gay. I feel like it would be easier if I could socialize with people who have the same thoughts and have gone through the same things. I found a LGBT safe house and all....but the environment is so formal....
does anyone have any suggestions?
or am i just going crazy...

THANKS! 

 So I have been told to keep everyone updated...which is definitely a good thing i think because writing really helps me clear my head.
Today I went to my local community LGBT center, "The Loft" which was kind of super awkward.
First off I was so nervous that I stood outside for a really long 5 min contemplating what was going to happen when I walked in. As i opened the door I had this sudden urge to just run away, really far away, from everything. And I still feel like that. ....so I walk in and I met this woman named Trudy. She is definitely in her good 50s and she is so sweet. sooooo sweet. But first I had to explain that I was knew to this etc.etc. which was really awkward. But finally that passed and she showed me around the area and explained out The Loft really works. In the end I am super glad I went because I feel like i have a new safe house just in case things head south sometime you know? 
Anyway...second story for the day....So trudy leaves me alone and I start to walk around and explore and such and just as I am leaving, I see guy sitting on the curb crying...I walked over to him and just sat down and asked him what was wrong. He explained he had just come out to his Dad and his Dad had reacted really awfully and was saying stuff about he would never have the son he wanted. And so i held him as he cried and explained that he heard of the loft as a safe place where he could go but he was too nervous to walk inside. Eventually I found out his name was Alex and he was 15 and he had just told his Dad that he was gay. I didnt know what to say or how to respond so we just sat there. We ended up swapping coming out stories and we pretty much spilled our whole lives together. He finally ended up saying that he was too nervous to go inside and could I go with him? Of course I said I would....But than i remembered this quote "Why does the thrill of soaring have to begin with the fear of falling?" and so i told him that...and than i said that until we do learn how to "soar" we won't understand the priviledge to have been born with such large and expansive wings. Lesbian, gay, bisexual, transexual, asexual, whatever he considered himseld to be...just to remember that he was amazing and beautiful and to not let anyone...ANYONE tell him differently. The same goes for those of you who are reading this. Coming out is an extremely tough thing to do - and being nervous and having difficulty doing it is so normal. Walking into your first gay community center is the same way. You want to run - but you do not have to. You are all amazing, just like Alex. You are all beautiful and just like Alex, do NOT let anyone tell you differently. Because whoever and whatever you consider yourself to be (sorry repetitive know) be proud of that! Right now, say OUTLOUD...I am _______ and I am DAMN PROUD. Here I will do it for you first....I am into girls, and I am DAMN PROUD of it!!!
 You too have expansive wings, you just need to learn out to use them....
Depending on who is reading this I am either helping, sounding like an idiot, or preaching to the quire. Whatever it is for you take it for what it is and use it the way it is. But remember....be proud.

So a little while back I came out to my family - my whole family, actually I posted about it.
My mom and my two brothers were very OK with it, but my Dad, Step mom, and stepsister (she does everything shes told to by her mom) have yet to speak with me. And you know thats ok, because I am who I am and i can't change that, nor will I ever want to.

But ever since I came out to my family, I have been feeling kind of awkward not knowing whats going on in their heads when I say stuff like, "ya she is gorgeous," or "I met this girl the other day and..." 
- is this normal? I am afraid that maybe on the inside they think I am like super duper weird for feeling the way I do. It is making me a tinsy bit self-conscious about saying certain things and when I ask them about they say it is fine and don't worry about just be myself.

Is it normal to be feeling like this after you have come out?

THANKS TO THOSE WHO RESPONDDD!!!! :-)

Peace and Love,
Christie

So i did it! I came out of the closet...I told my mom and my two brothers I was bisexual/gay...
and they were more than ok with it...I was so surprised...they were so proud and happy to have me in their family. I am so blessed and lucky to have them as my family...

Than I told my Dad, and considering he couldn't kick me out of his house because I don't live there...he just uninvited me to Christmas...which is OK because I didn't expect much from him - I don't normally expect shit. My stepsister was perfectly fine and happy and my stepmom thinks im the devil. lol I think it is funny...so what if they think like that...they are missing out.
That is my new frame of mind...
Like it?
Met too!!!!

Peace and love everyone :)
Christie

So I have decided to tell my Mom and my brothers that I am bisexual.

I am scared shitless.
I hope they accept me.
And right after that happens, I am going to tell my best friends because they deserve to know and I want them to know who I am.
Those who I love need to know who I am - I am bisexual. And I am very proud as of this past week haha.
I just wanted to let you all know that I read almost everything on bisexuality on this website and it convinced me that I am going to be ok. So here I come I guess?
It is time for me to come out. So...yay!

I am telling them within the next two weeks - we are going on vacation together (my family and I) and I want to tell them all at the same time....I hope I don't chicken out!

Wish me luck!!!!
 
ps - if you have any words of wisdom or comments please share :)
I can use all the encouragement as possible right now. 

This past summer (2009) I have started to realize that I am different than other people. I take things differently...when my best friends playfully smack my butt or touch me or giggle and laugh - i start to blush and go into flirt mode. I guess I have always known that I was kind of into girls - but this really did it. I have a feeling I know I am not gay because I am still really into guys - but instead of just getting that giggly crazy feeling with just guys, I get it with girls as well... 

Anyway, now that i have finally accepted it for myself and am ready to be who I am....I need to tell my family. They are my best friends, my mom, and my two brothers...they are my life raft. I have told them everything since day 1. It is time to tell them about this .... this is what I am afraid of....

a) Them saying, Oh it is just a phase you will get over it

b) Them telling me I am just a whore and thats why I like both genders

c) Them laughing at me for thinking this is a big deal.

What do I say to them so I can avoid these reactions? I am planning on telling them in three weeks on our family vacation but I am super nervous about this confrontation.
Can someone please help me with this?
Thoughts?
THANKS!
-Christie