HI my name is preston.
   I'm gay and I dont care that i am. To me its like love and compassion. Im 14 years old and go to middle school. Its so hard to be gay. Even though almost all my freinds know that im gay and support me into being myself. My best freind is bysexual and he has a boyfreind and im happy for him, but i envy him. Is that wrong? I want someone in my life who cares about me who can talk to me anytime when he neede to. I want a boyfreind so bad i cant stand it. im so lonely. I knew i was gay since i was 9 years old. before my hormones kicked in. i just knew i was gay. Im attracted to some of my guy freinds but there straight or not.
  I want someone to hold me and cherish and i will do the same. I dont know where to find a boyfreind. some one please help me. i want to go to a gay support group but theres nothing around in my area. i have dreams about men all my life. I just want a gay freind to talk to. i would talk to zac but hes always with his boyfreind. My parents dont even know. I tried to tell my mom but she said that she doesnt like gays so i didnt tell her. I desperately want a freind. that i can talk to. i know my blogg is stupid or amatured. im lonely< i dont have no one to talk to to love to kiss to cry on a shoulder. I also need a freind. thanks for listening.