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Tuesday, March 16, 2010 at 10:51:00 PM EDT

everytime i look at guys i feel envious. i want their broad shoulders and flat chest. i just dont know why. its hard to explain exactly how i feel, its like lately i hate being a girl. i want to laugh and joke around with guys the way they do, its like they r in a seperate world, and im desperatly trying to get access. i want to have the voice that they have, i want to be able to dress the way they do, i just want to have EVERYTHING they have but i dont  know why and im getting frustrated, and the fact that im frustrated is confusing, i dont know why i want what i do, i just do. its like an ache an empty hole in my chest, but im at a loss as to WHY i feel like this. you know, there has been an regular occuring thought in my head; why was i not born a guy, its not fair! i dont know whats going on, is this what other people feel at some point in their life? i guess thats my question; is what im feeeling something that other people feel all the time?

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Have you ever thought that you might be transgender? I would suggest looking through some information offered byPFLAG (Parents, Families, and Friends of Lesbians and Gays). They've got a lot of great info/resources for transgender people and their families.
# Posted By Mahayana | 3/17/10 12:00 PM | Report | Reply
I would also recommend looking through this information provided by Advocates for Youth.
# Posted By Mahayana | 3/17/10 12:32 PM | Report | Reply
And, of course, Youth Resource has TONS of info and resources available, including links to other sites/organizations, a list of hotlines, as well as a list of books and films on LGBTQ subjects. I think you'll find everything you need.
# Posted By Mahayana | 3/17/10 12:38 PM | Report | Reply