Mommy_2_An_Angel
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I’m about as indecisive as they come. On one hand I want things to be spelt out for me, but then on the other hand I want to figure things out on my own. When I am presented with shades of gray I want things to be black and white. But when they are black and white, I still search for areas of gray. When I know what should be done, I look for any way to get around it. I search high and low for the loop hole, and when I come up short, I’m upset. I want control but when I have it, I can’t handle it. Am I just being difficult or am I simply human? There is a saying that says “when one door closes another door opens”, but if this is true, why do I continue to remain at the closed door trying to pick the deadbolt? Why do I linger in the past, wondering why I don’t have a better future? Why must I continue to pick at the scab knowing that it will only cause my wound to bleed? Why must I try to put on the role of an adult, but yet still act very much like a child? Why do I see the answer presented over and over before me but fail to use it? My life I realize is like a multiple choice test. You know the type that you had in high school where the teacher would give you questions and the answers before hand and all you had to do was pay attention. The answer is there, the test has been made easy. All is left is for me to fill in that bubble. There is no need for second guessing, because the answer is secure, because when Jesus becomes my final answer, I have finally found that open door.
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