Wednesday, September 1, 2010 at 8:05:00 AM EDT
I've been trying to hide these feelings since I was in my junior secondary school. I'm a senior now and my feelings still haven't "gone away" like I had hoped. People had always told me that you can't really love the opposite sex; they tell me you're either disclose you're gay. But when I discussed it with my dad he normally tells me that their culture permits that the only son of a family is entitled to have children, so not to disgrace the entire family. But am scared because if I come out now I feel like it's too late and my close friends and family will be offended that I never said anything about me been gay. Also it's a huge "blow" at my school to say you’re gay, because I know what it looks like to everybody in school. I don't want to be thought of any differently. I've done things with males and females and I've fallen hard for both guys and girls before so I know where I stand but disclosing to them about who I really am is getting me worked up because I don’t know how they may feel about me. I just need some advice. I'm so lost and confused.